Reaching

Why is it when you let someone put you in a situation that's supposed to be 'good for you' but you're not comfortable in it, it only ends up with you hurting and angry?

I don't push everyone away, but when I'm already hurting, and I have to deal with these kinds of situations, I don't want those people near me, so I push them away.

Maybe this is what Chap meant about love being pushed but not pushed away.

Someday I'll find my rock, the one that's going to be unmoved when I'm angry and hurt, the one who pushes me to get it all out without running when I do.

Until then, I'm tired of people pretending to be that person when it's pretty obvious they don't want to be.